Wednesday, August 26, 2009
I thought I have the strength to do it, but, it resulted to an heartache, then, I realised deep down inside my heart where me myself couldn't find that hollow sacred place, that I couldn't let you go. I put a smile on my face so that no one would see that deep down inside of me, I am bleeding. Well, at least after I have found out the truth, I know that I MUST forget you, if not, it would go worsen and it would last, and I nor you nor they want this to happen. It is hard facing those words you said which were meant for others, and I have to paint temporary smile on my face and smile. I've tried my best to be the perfect one for you, but you couldn't see. Pathetic me, yeah, I know. Well, I will appreciate those moment we had, those words you said which would brighten up my days, which now make me so down. I am sick of crying myself to sleep, sleeping for 3 hours and I couldn't sleep back, thinking back of those words you once said which you are meant not to mean it, staying up late trying to manipulate myself that I could move on without you ; I could actually succeed without you by my side. Oh darling, trust me, it isn't easy to face those killer words you said. Just. Appreciate. What. You. Have.P.s Alvin, maybe you are right. I have to learn to love myself first. By that way, maybe I could find someone who actually love me (: Oh, Julianne, this post is for you since you said you like reading my blog. Haha (: Stay strong.
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