Be anonymous to me or I will be anonymous to you. I know, me saying that I have move on with my life, saying those words which make you all think that I am actually back to usual. No more eye sheding, no more tears on my pillow, no more ache on my chest, haha, I guessed I actually succeeded manipulating myself by that. I can hide it from everyone else including myself but I couldn't hide it from one particular person. But I just feel like thanking to all of my friends who had been there for me whenever I need them during intense and desperate moment. Step by step I am recovering. Your words do not mean anything to me right now. Your promises are all broken until it can't be fixed, so what is the point of sitting at one corner waiting for you to fullfill your promises as it should be? I may love you once, but right now, I only could love you as a friend. And I promise you, myself and them that it will maintain this way. I do not want to sound harsh but I could only find this way, to take another step, keep walking, leaving every hurtful things behind, throwing them to one side, dumped them so that it would not haunt me anymore in my sleep, by this way, I find myself being happier than usual. A permanent smile on my face finally. A perfect piece of pure heart which is thirsting for happiness. Joy my friend. Maintain me this way. I do not want to feel this anymore, until I find the suitable time to let someone hit my heart, and let that someone be sure of himself before hurting me. One day, I will find someone who I can be who I am whenever I am with him, eventhough I can be who I am with you right now, but, it's no use crying over a spilt milk, no point playing on broken notes, no point hoping chance to drop by your door. As time pass, I would live on my life. Awwww, I am still overjoy. XD
weinee
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